Long journey to healthy

That above number may be an exaggeration, but Ill tell you,  Im not ever giving up.  I need to remember that there are so many things that have changed mentally and internally for me that you just dont see on the outside. I got down to 256 about a year ago and have gone back up to 286 again.  Ridiculous and wayy too much.   Ive also noticed difficulty moving around like I want to.  CrossFit alone isnt going to do anything if I don't get my diet in check.   So, lets do this!!  I would love to be at 250 by mid May for my girls trip.   CrossFit has changed me so much.  I am so much more mentally strong that I ever have been and I am able to for the most part, keep that inner voice quite when she gets negative.  (Inner hater, I call her).   That inner hater is reinforced by people that have wronged me, and negative life experiences.   Well, shes an idiot.   That inner hater.  I have don...

I had another blog that I never shared with anyone out of shame.  After going back and reading some old posts, one thing is clear, I am just not going to give up.  I will eventually get there, someday. Its so easy to get lost in the failures and roadblocks.   To let life and trauma and things get in the way.  To take care of everyone else except yourself.  To allow that inner voice to continue to repeat messages you were told as a child, that are false.   But, despite everything, I am a fighter and will continue to fight.  However, this time Im fighting for me.  I really want to get healthy and become the person that I know is hiding inside.  Maybe some accountability will be helpful.  I hope to inspire and help others too.  I have gotten inspiration from so many people out there. Welcome, and here we go!!!