Long journey to healthy

So after eating like the world was going to end for two months (Tgiving and Christmas), I am now back on the bandwagon.  Im going to have to accept that the holidays are my weakness and work really hard the rest of the year, lol!!! I seriously ate whatever I wanted for those two months.  We started this two month challenge at the box on January 2, and I can tell you that first two weeks of detoxing/changing are hell, but this last week and a half have been hell.  I AM SO FUCKING GODDAMN TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  The first time we did a challenge I did whole 30 which is so limiting and doesn't allow you to have much of anything, so this time we chose paleo this time.  I was really tired last time the first two weeks also.  In an act of support (put your jaw back) , he is doing it to.  However, it makes him uber grumpy and we arent really speaking at this point, but thats another post. Anyway, this is day 10 and I am still effing tired....

This is always such a bittersweet time of year for me. I miss my mom so much, and it is so stressful. This year I was super smart and got everyone done early, way early, so I am able to relax. Im even taking James out of town next Saturday night for his birthday. He usually gets the shaft, since his bday is on Christmas Eve, so this year we are fortunate enough to be able to do something fun!! I cannot wait. This is also a bittersweet time of year this year because we know Grandma Charlotte's time is limited. Watching Kira go through this is hearbreaking, and I feel so helpless. I watch a beautiful 12 year old attempt to grasp what can only be uncomprehensible to her. Its so hard, because I know what's coming for her. I know the pain, the anguish that she is facing. She has no idea that as bad as it is now, it will be so much worse. The physical pain of your heart breaking is not something I want her to have to deal with at this time in her life. Her ...