This is always such a bittersweet time of year for me. I miss my mom so much, and it is so stressful. This year I was super smart and got everyone done early, way early, so I am able to relax. Im even taking James out of town next Saturday night for his birthday. He usually gets the shaft, since his bday is on Christmas Eve, so this year we are fortunate enough to be able to do something fun!! I cannot wait.

This is also a bittersweet time of year this year because we know Grandma Charlotte's time is limited. Watching Kira go through this is hearbreaking, and I feel so helpless. I watch a beautiful 12 year old attempt to grasp what can only be uncomprehensible to her. Its so hard, because I know what's coming for her. I know the pain, the anguish that she is facing. She has no idea that as bad as it is now, it will be so much worse. The physical pain of your heart breaking is not something I want her to have to deal with at this time in her life. Her closeness to her great grandmother has definately been a blessing in her life, but I am so scared for how well she will handle this. She is strong, but I know grieiving is super hard, and I pray for strength for me to help her get through this the best way I can, and the best for her.

Regardless of everything going on, I am so thankful for what we have, the many blessings that we often disregard. Life is good, and we are all so blessed....

Happy Holidays!!

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