So I am beyond tired of being a fatty and missing out on all the fun things that I wish I could do.   So, Im on a mission to eat more naturally, and do crossfit 3-5 times a week.  Started yesterday, and am giving myself until Christmas to see what results I come up with.......

Below is a list Ive been generating of things i wont miss about being fat.   Some are crude, some are difficult to understand unless youve been extremely overweight, and if you know me well, which you do or you wouldn't be reading this; you know that I am honest to a fault:

I WILL NOT MISS NOT BEING ABLE TO:

shop in normal stores
wear trendy clothes
shop with friends
thighs rubbing together
always being the fat friend
chafing
fat rolls
muffin tops
weakness
looking at pictures of myself
looking in the mirror
sex as a fat person
wear sexy halloween costumes
sharing clothing
smelling
profusely sweating at the slightest exertion
fat jiggling
fupa the size of texas
not feeling sexy, ever
wiping my ass without contortions
have my husband pick me up
piggy back rides
share clothing with Kira
cross my legs
wear super high heels
get male attention
make bitches jealous 

Im sure there are more, but I will add those as I continue this journey.   For now, I will be spending as much time and energy as I can at crossfit, I love it there, and trying to find my way to a happier person.   Im, at 280 now, I would love to ultimately get to 190, but would be happy with anything under 220.   I dont think with the amount of muscle mass that I want that I should go much under 190, but we will see; charts suggest 175 for my height and body build.  Im more about the way I look and feel than a number on the scale, so Ill just see how it goes.   Cant wait.   Ill try and post in